Genuine, Honest With a twist of Marriage Material and lemon..lol

Hi everyone =) I am a very open, honest respectful yet blunt person.. from day 1 I believe a person should leave all cards out on the table.. and if others approve then you know you have found your genuine match.. so with that in the open.. that's how I go about things.. open.. honest and up front from the very start... I am a very Heartfelt, thoughtful, loving and caring person.. I always seem to go out to help others.. without thinking what I may gain from it.. "usually resulting in me getting hurt" but guess that comes with the territory. For it to be known.. I have 2 kids.. whom are the world to me in a part of my circle.. my daughter Aeris whom is 8 1/2 and my Son Elijah who is 6 1/2.. both by the same mom.. in short.. we were high school sweet hearts who grew apart as we got older.. for it to be known I've never been married.. I personally feel that marriage is sacred.. and should be looked at as a 1 time thing.. the words in the meaning say through sick ness and health* till death do us part* not till. little speed bumps or drama do us part* So many people give up on relationships, simply because they aren't some perfect story book ending.. well life is about trial and error.. by learning and correcting by your mistakes.. in marriage you will have ups and downs.. but when times get hard.. that's when you are to lean on, and trust your spouse(each other) more than ever.. I'm hoping to find someone who can share this virtue and meaning.